A procedure to scrape and collect the tissue (endometrium) from inside the uterus. Dilation is a widening of the cervix to allow instruments into the uterus. Curettage is the scraping of the walls of the uterus.
After I found out that our Baby D died in my womb after a week of my last ultrasound, we still waited a week and a half for me to bleed and contract naturally. And maybe our baby still wants to be with me because I didn't feel any contractions or blood spotting at all. So my doctor advised me to go back to her last Friday, but due to work related matters, I postponed my visit and instead went to the hospital early the next day. As my ever supportive Mom went with me because Ali needs to report for work (I love you Ma for being with me the whole time).
My doctor looked at my cervix and it still not open. So she puts a gel medicine for me to contract and bleed. My Mom was with me the whole time in the hallway of the delivery room. I heard new born babies crying every hour and I just felt so hurt at that time that I can't stop crying. I called "GOD" and still didn't ask any questions. Maybe my Mom saw me crying so she talked to me to help me calm down.
Everyone knows that I'm afraid of operations/ surgery of any kind. Like my lips! I didn't ask my parents to fix my lips because I'm too afraid to have a plastic surgery kahit sabihin pa nila na malayo sa bituka at sandali lang ang operation-- I don't care. I lived with it for the past 28 years and its still present until now. Its my battle scar, my trade mark, my agimat and my beauty secret (maganda pa rin ako kahit may menchi ako. Lelz) All I'm saying is that, I'm not ready for an instant operation. I prepared myself for baby delivery procedure or CS but not D and C. It's too soon indavance ng 6 months! Eh wala naman ako magagawa. I just have to suck it all up and give it to God. As God is greater than anything lalo na ang fear ko. I know God will take care of me. Kaya when I started bleeding, I actually felt nothing. When the nurses started to move me to the operating room, parang wala na ako sa sarili, I let go.
The last question that I answered was "Saan ka nakatira Liah?" and I'm out. I woke up at the recovery room. I woke up crying knowing that my baby is gone forever and he/she is not in my tummy anymore. "GOD"...
After two and a half hours (30 minutes D & C procedure and 2 hours recovery) I stepped out of the pre-labor room and saw my family waiting for me. I felt warm, I felt loved, I felt complete and still blessed because they were there smiling at me. I let go, I let God take over me.
Four days after my operation, I'm still staying here at my parents house. I'm very thankful for my husband because he always encourages me to be strong - though alam niya na deep inside me I'm still hurt (physically and emotionally), my parents because they've been with us from the start. My Mom and Dad took a leave from their work just to take care of me. Thank you to my Lolas, Lolo, Titas and cousins who visited me at my parents' house and to all wished me to be well. Thank you God for keeping me safe and for taking care of Baby D.
Alam ko God, ibabalik mo to sa amin. Alam ko may plano ka para sa amin. Ikaw na bahala...
