and when is the bestest time to start? --- No better time other than today, that is because it is Valentines Day. Love is not only for lovers, but its love for your self, family and friends as well.
What to do...
1. Stop comparing yourself to others. (STOP LOOKING AT FACEBOOK!)
- Our fight last night was about his company event and I am sulking the whole night because I didn't have a date or a surprise from him. Because yes, I envy those girls who got surprises from their husbands on the eve of Valentines. I just wanted to have flowers or potted flower plant, I want him to give me chocolates, or a letter. A LOVE LETTER. But he shows up 2am having no surprise/flowers/letter/chocolates. Sumama talaga loob ko. I want to feel loved and appreciated.
Realization: If I hadn't looked and spent the night looking on Facebook, I think there's a little chance that I didn't sulk or envy. Maybe, I will be grateful that I am with my family celebrating my cousin's 19th birthday and cry for the "aww" moments of my uncle with his daughter. I should be laughing with my Titas, singing my heart out and just be thankful that my husband survived his 1st car show and went home as fast as he could to be with me and my family.
2. I will start to write my blessings everyday. Write something I did good everyday and what I love about myself.
- It is when I write (kahit wrong grammar pa, kebs na!) that I have this realizations, good and bad. I need and want to count my blessings. To feel good about myself and to know what to improve about myself. I really want to change you know, its just so hard. Small steps. Small steps.
3. I want to be closer to God again.
- Don't get me wrong here okay. I just don't pray as often as before. I go to church not every Sunday but to when my schedule is free nalang. And I think that I can't do this "love myself" program without his guidance. So I just need to put it here.
4. Be inspired about what you like about other people and be that!
- What I like/ admire about other people is what I want to become. Examples:
Ali: I admire his passion for work. I admire his "helping" attitude. I admire his positivity.
Rinika: She's the most thoughtful person I know.
April: No lates, very very punctual.
My Mom: Very calm, Can control her feelings and the most generous person I know.
Judy: Her passion for makeup and looking good.
Mama: The most patient of all.
Iryss: Her initiative at work.
Sigrid: No pretensions
Clang: Goal oriented. Knows what she wants. Career woman.
Kit: Also very patient, calm and always look good.
CFCF: Her love for her family and friends
5. Exercise
- This is all about emotional and physical. Exercise helps me lose weight and losing weight means loving what I look like and my body. Though even though I'm fat (now) I still need to love my body, what I look like and be confident about it.
6. Accept my flaws and change for the better.
- I know all of us have flaws and bad attitude. So I really need to identify my good and bad attitude to determine what I need to change and to improve.
I have lots of work to do but I need to do this for myself. After myself, next is the people around me and how I influence and react towards them.
I should do this more often.
<3MrsD
