New beginnings

The negativity, the unprofessionalism, the backstabbing, the unwanted relationship --- I had to end it all. Though I still miss my previous work, I had to move forward. I am very lucky to be accepted in one of the leading Online Travel Agencies in Asia. I'm still on training and I managed to go to work 1 hour before. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? Oo, ako to si Liah at hindi ito panaginip!

Anyway, I am really working hard to sustain my punctuality nowadays. Though I got late at my gardening workshop last Saturday, I still managed to go to work very early for 7 days now. YEHEY!  I'm so proud of myself! And I kinda like it. Fourteen more days to go so I can make it a habit. And then I'll be influencing my husband as well.

I'm trying to get my mojo back because I'm lazy as hell, because I'm still learning and not busy at work.

I need to love myself a little more

I think what I'm lacking is the love for myself part. I had so many grudges, I can't control my anger anymore, take it all out on Ali, self pity, and thinking that I am a "victim" all the time. They say that you should love yourself first before you love others or asking them to do the "loving" before yourself. Which I agree and I am looking forward to do and start asap.

and when is the bestest time to start? --- No better time other than today, that is because it is Valentines Day. Love is not only for lovers, but its love for your self, family and friends as well. 

What to do...

1. Stop comparing yourself to others. (STOP LOOKING AT FACEBOOK!)

- Our fight last night was about his company event and I am sulking the whole night because I didn't have a date or a surprise from him. Because yes, I envy those girls who got surprises from their husbands on the eve of Valentines. I just wanted to have flowers or potted flower plant, I want him to give me chocolates, or a letter. A LOVE LETTER. But he shows up 2am having no surprise/flowers/letter/chocolates. Sumama talaga loob ko. I want to feel loved and appreciated.

Realization:  If I hadn't looked and spent the night looking on Facebook, I think there's a little chance that I didn't sulk or envy. Maybe, I will be grateful that I am with my family celebrating my cousin's 19th birthday and cry for the "aww" moments of my uncle with his daughter. I should be laughing with my Titas, singing my heart out and just be thankful that my husband survived his 1st car show and went home as fast as he could to be with me and my family. 

2. I will start to write my blessings everyday. Write something I did good everyday and what I love about myself.

- It is when I write (kahit wrong grammar pa, kebs na!) that I have this realizations, good and bad. I need and want to count my blessings. To feel good about myself and to know what to improve about myself. I really want to change you know, its just so hard. Small steps. Small steps.

3. I want to be closer to God again. 

- Don't get me wrong here okay. I just don't pray as often as before. I go to church not every Sunday but to when my schedule is free nalang. And I think that I can't do this "love myself" program without his guidance. So I just need to put it here. 

4. Be inspired about what you like about other people and be that!

- What I like/ admire about other people is what I want to become. Examples:

Ali: I admire his passion for work. I admire his "helping" attitude. I admire his positivity.

Rinika: She's the most thoughtful person I know.

April: No lates, very very punctual.

My Mom: Very calm, Can control her feelings and the most generous person I know.

Judy: Her passion for makeup and looking good.

Mama: The most patient of all.

Iryss: Her initiative at work. 

Sigrid: No pretensions

Clang: Goal oriented. Knows what she wants. Career woman.

Kit: Also very patient, calm and always look good. 

CFCF: Her love for her family and friends

5. Exercise

- This is all about emotional and physical. Exercise helps me lose weight and losing weight means loving what I look like and my body. Though even though I'm fat (now) I still need to love my body, what I look like and be confident about it. 

6. Accept my flaws and change for the better.

- I know all of us have flaws and bad attitude. So I really need to identify my good and bad attitude to determine what I need to change and to improve. 

I have lots of work to do but I need to do this for myself. After myself, next is the people around me and how I influence and react towards them. 

I should do this more often. 

<3MrsD

My First Color Manila 3k Run Challenge

As I begun the year 2015, I pledged to myself to fully commit into fitness and be in my ideal weight, 100lbs to be exact by the end of the year (or earlier because we were planning to have a baby soon!). On January, I tried Zumba again until end of February, but still, my mind made excuses, my body chose the couch potato that I got used to for the past year.

Few weeks back I was looking for an inspiration to get my lazy ass going. Then I saw a colleague from my past work who aims to finish the 42k Bull Runner Marathon. Her journey to 42k took one whole year. She runs, do yoga, dance and lift weights, even when she travels, she never left her running shoes behind. Then the day of her 42k race came and she finished first! I am so happy for her though we never talked that much but yes, I'm still happy for her from a far. Hehehe!

My previous post is also connected with this. Click Here

"There are no lucky people in this world. Whatever me, you or they have - appearance, family, money, success, sport, career, children - was achieved by a lot of stress, determination and hellish HARD work."

I want to have something to achieve, something to accomplish for myself. To have that sense of fulfillment.  This pushed me to sign up for the Color Manila Run on April 19, 2015 at Mall of Asia. So I still have 28 days to train.

I signed up for a 3K run challenge. I know its not a big deal but for me it is. It will be my first time to join a marathon and aiming to finish with a medal. I joined a few fun runs before but I ended up walking and not finishing it. 

I am currently researching for a 28 day running plan to help me succeed in this marathon. I have low endurance and stamina so I MUST work on that. It can also help me get back on track for my fitness goals. 
I started practicing yoga yesterday and danced hip-hop abs at home. Hahaha! I'm counting it as my Day1. 

Wish me luck!

<3 Mrs. D