Birth month of my first unborn

October is my 1st favorite month of the year. Why? Because it's my birth month! Yup. I'm welcoming the number THREE ZERO with open arms and beginning another chapter in my life, another decade to fill with new memories.

It's also the birth month of my first angel. I don't know the exact date of her birthday but I know it's in the last week of October. I'm happy to celebrate our birthday together. (okay, I'm starting to cry now and this is supposed to be a happy post)

I don't want to question God but I can't help myself to question:
... Why did I have to experience this?
... Are we not ready yet?
... I know I want to have a baby, but how come it's more than a year since my miscarriage and still I'm not pregnant?
... Nakatatlo na si Kate Middleton, naka dalawa na si Sarah Lahbati, may twins na si Saab Magalona and buntis na din si Belle Daza pero ako, wala pa din?
... WHY.

For my dear husband

Writing about you, our relationship, our friendship, our team is difficult because no words can explain how thankful I am to have this lifetime spent with you. Though at times, we don't understand each other, we have difficulties and we get to each other's nerves, please know that I can live because of you, that I am at my best version of myself because you pushed me to be better, to do more and to grow more -with you. You inspire me to reach for my dreams and to think positive even at difficult times.

People often asks me, may pinagaawayan pa ba kayo? You look so happy together.
Maybe because we chose our battles wisely, we don't show others our struggles because were mature enough to solve it on our own.

Thank you for everything.

I love you.

Holiday realizations

I haven't been updating my blog. Huhu! I AM SORRY.

Anyway, I opened my brother's hard drive and found old pictures and videos of me and my ex. Epic! My first reaction was: Ang payat ko. OMG. I need to get back in shape. PLEASE. and as I continue to browse, I felt happy because what I saw are good memories. As in literal na Laughing Out Loud. HAHAHA! He was my bestfriend since 4th year high school until 2010. I don't regret giving up our friendship because it led me to a much more good life. 

P.S. If ever my ex's wife read this, okay lang na ijudge mo ako na hindi pa ako nakapagmove on or bitter. Hehe! I'm just happy. And I want to thank you for giving my ex-bestfriend a life he deserves. :)

Anyway...

Today, I am so thankful to God that he gave everything that I needed. Iba kapag dumating ka na sa point sa buhay mo na sobrang kuntento ka na. I'm turning 29 this year and I'm thinking what I want to give myself or iparegalo (HAHAHA) kaso... wala na ako maisip na material things. 

All I want?

- Learn new skills

- To gain more experience 

- To be a better version of myself

- To see the world

- To work and reach my dreams

- To have a better career

- To be selfless

and for me to have this? Is just to work on myself more. Ewan, mamamatay na ata ako sa sobrang pagkaover thankful ko. Hehehe! 

<3 Mrs. D

MrsD Garden: Update

When my Mom bought me my very first plant, Kalachuchi (Name: Theon), I got addicted to planting ever since. I tried my luck to plant a few edible, flower bearing and display plants. I also tried planting from seeds, fully grown and straight from vegetable seeds (I just dried it). And because of my astonishment that I grew several plants without drowning them or drying them, I became enthusiastic to brag about my gardening skills to my family and friends. I even influenced some of my friends to plant! My family on the other hand, gave me some of their plants.

Last April, my Basil, Green bell pepper and Milflores plant died because I didn't water them for a week due to my recent hospitalization. I tried to revive my Basil because its roots is still alive but I ran out of patience to wait. #sad

Now, my little garden is growing. I have my first baby, Theon (Kalachuchi), Morning Glory, Okra, Snake Plant, Welcome plant, two cactus and succulents.

Then I came across this blog where she talks about Carnivorous plants and where to get them. I visited their site Pitcher Plant Farm. The Pitcher Plant Farm was located at Malaybalay, Bukidnon - owned by a German, Mr. Volker Heinrich. He specializes in growing different kinds of carnivorous plants - Pitcher plants, Sundews, Butterworth, Bladderworth, Stylidium and the famous Venus Flytrap.

 When I saw the Venus Flytrap, I felt the connection! HAHAHA! I fell in love with it instantly!!! Its so beautiful and wild. So vicious but too pretty. Okay my excitement can't get enough of me! I clicked buy and checked out! Yey!!! I have an exotic plant coming in next week :)

And as I read how to grow this beauty, it states that it is very delicate and not easy to grow so wish me luck!

<3 Mrs. D

Marriage 101: Fights - Do we have to tell others?

Ali and I are still new to being a married couple. We had several fights here and there, and were not used to telling other people our problems because we want to resolve it on our own.

Last weekend, we had a huge fight and we had to cancel our social events to fix our problem, compromise and reconcile. I am a little bit of guilty though because when my relatives asks me "why didn't you come? Nagtatampo na si Tito mo" I don't want to blurt to everyone that were having a problem and were trying to settle it. I am a very private person when it comes to my problems. I know, sometimes you have to seek help so it will not be a solo burden. But do I really need to tell everyone that we have a problem? I mean its for us to solve anyway. Right?

<3 Mrs. D